6.22.2010

Thought I'd share

I have long struggled with prayer.  It seemed an easy enough concept, you're talking to God.  However simple it sounds, the execution never seemed very easy for me.  How to I approach Him?  Is He really hearing me?  Am I over thinking? (well that's a certain possibility, since I do that with everything!)  Who am I to ask things of God, when He's given so much to me already?  How do I listen for His answers?  Will I hear something (a-la booming disembodied voice), will thoughts pop into my head, how will I know when He's done talking?  What if I'm hearing myself answer things, and not God?  So on and so forth.  I got tired of not knowing, so I sought out a Bible study I could do on my own.  Not that I don't want to study with other people, but I don't know of anyone studying this particular subject right now.  I found a book by Cynthia Heald called Becoming a Woman of Prayer and apparently she's got a whole series with similar titles.  You may already know of her, but I hadn't, so I thought I'd give the book a try.  I'm only one day in, but I've already received such amazing insights that I just had to share.  (Just in case anyone else questions their prayer time.) 

The first thing that struck me was a quote by O. Hallesby
"To pray is to let Jesus come into our hearts.  This teaches us, in the first place, that it is not our prayer which moves the Lord Jesus.  It is Jesus who moves us to pray.  He knocks.  Thereby He makes known His desire to come in to us.  Our prayers are always a result of Jesus' Knocking at our hearts' doors."
Wowzy wowza!  I always thought, since most of my requests are self seeking, that I was coming to Him, when in fact, it is God calling to us because He wants to hang out with and spend time with us! 

Then, she quotes John Owen
"There is a fourfold resemblance between them [prayer and incense]:  1. In that it was beaten and pounded before it was used.  So doth acceptable prayer proceed from a broken and contrite heart.  2. It was of no use until fire was put under it, and that taken from the altar.  Nor is that prayer of any virtue of efficacy which is not kindled by the fire from above, the Holy Spirit of God, which we have from our altar, Christ Jesus.  3. It naturally ascended upwards towards heaven, as all offerings in the Hebrew are called "ascensions," risings up.  4. It yielded a sweet savour; which was one end of it in temple services, wherein there was so much burning of flesh and blood.  So doth prayer yield a sweet savour unto God; a savour of rest, wherein he is well pleased."
I never knew why they used incense in conjunction to prayer.  I find learning the meanings behind the symbolism so facinating.  It makes things more meaningful, when you know why it's done and not just doing things because they are done.

The study is not just a book of cool quotes, there is meditation time and scripture to study, I just happened to think those two examples were thought provoking and wanted to share.  So, there ya go!

6.09.2010

hooked on phonics

Since we've moved I've actually been reading quite a bit. I'm not going to lie to you, I'm not a big reader.  I certainly don't hate reading, I just don't really know what I like.  I feel lost and overwhelmed when looking for a book to read.  I mean, I love Harry Potter, but I feel silly scoping out the children's section at the library/bookstore all the time.  I think I like mysteries, but it depends on what kind, and I haven't found an author that is fantastic.  Michael Crighton is also a favorite, but I don't know if I'd like other scifi genre type books.  I realize that borrowing a book shouldn't be such an ordeal, but I don't want to feel obligated to read an awful book.  Anyhow, I thought I'd share books I've read with a short synopsis just in case anyone else feels the same way.

Timeline by Michael Crichton
Unlike Jurassic Park, this book takes a while to get into.  It's about a group of historians and archaeologists that are excavating an ancient city.  But of course it's not just as normal as that, there is a company that is developing a time machine (that is of course still in it's experimental phase) that takes a group back to the medieval times.  Once the group gets back in time, the story really picks up and lives up to Crichton's literary capabilities.

Next by Michael Crichton
This book was quite different from his normal stuff, in my opinion.  That's not to say it was bad, but it wasn't what I was expecting.  It discusses the hypothetical possibility that large corporations and hospitals may soon be able to buy our dna and use as they see fit.  There are a lot of story lines, that can become a little confusing, as far as keeping people straight.  Some of the stories intertwine (which I really like) but some didn't at all.  Some story lines felt like they just stopped and got ignored.  I certainly don't regret this book, but I won't be reading it again.

The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein
If you enjoyed "howl-a-day inn" as a kid, you may enjoy this now.  It's written completely from the dog's perspective.  Being a dog person, I loved it!  The personality and inner workings of a dog's mind were captured perfectly!  It's not necessarily a light hearted read, keep a box of tissues on hand.  However the hope and spirit of Enzo (the dog) makes it a beautiful story of the unfailing love that dogs offer their people.

The Curious Incident of the Dog at Night-Time by Mark Haddon
Another book written from a different perspective, this one is from the view of a mentally handicapped boy. He discoverers the neighbor's dog dead in her front yard, and tries to figure out who-done-it.  Along the way he meets his neighbors and discovers things about his life, that change everything for him.  I'm afraid if I go too far I'd ruin some of the plot, and I don't want to do that.  It's a pretty short read, but was well written, so I'd recommend it.

Lost and Found by Jaqueline Sheehan
Another dog book, although, not narrated by the dog.  The lead character, Rocky, loses her husband and moves across the country to escape from the bad memories.  She starts a new life and rescues/fosters a dog that had been shot with an arrow.  Understandably upset by this act, she takes it upon herself to solve the mystery of what happened to the dog, all the while the dog worms his way into her heart and the hearts of her newly made friends, so she begins to move on with her life and discover a new kind of love.  The last few chapters make the book next to impossible to put down!  This book would be a great one to take to the beach/vacation, or somewhere you're wanting to read something that does a lot of the thinking for you. 

The Mysterious Benedict Society by Trenton Lee Stewart
Alrighty, I went into the kids section, but I'm glad I did!  This is the first book in a series of three (so far...) about a group of gifted children, recruited as spies to save the world from the brain washing Ledroptha Curtain.  It's almost like Harry Potter for GT kids.  I certainly won't boast that it's nearly as well written as HP, but it's still pretty good.  Each kid has a different gift, which when they combine them all, they are pretty much unstoppable.  You get to experience the story along with the children, solving puzzles as they do, which makes the read more enjoyable in my opinion.  I don't like waiting for the characters to finally figure out what I've known the whole time. 

Right now, I'm working on Wicked by Gregory Maguire.  It is indeed the book that the Broadway play is based on.  If you have any other suggestions for me, I'd love to hear them!  Hopefully, if you're looking for a good read, something here will appeal to you.